What i learned

I got this from a tag in xanga. Since i barely use xanga, i'll post it here. :]
I need to tag 20 people, but there aren't that many eh :)) haha. Kung sino nalang mapadpad dito, you make your own din :P

I was 5 when i first learned how to make pancakes with the pilsbury dough with my mom, and how to smile when there's a camera around. I learned how to blow the candle off my birthday cake without some impatient person to blow it off for me. I first tried to cut my hair and cried.

I was 6 when i learned how to swim and ride a bike (with training wheels). It was the last time i peed in bed. I got hospitalized and learned that it wasn't as bad, I actually liked staying there. It was that time that I learned doing certain things aren't cute anymore.

I was 7 i learned how to dance and love it. I learned the value of education, it wasn't just some gold/red/blue sticker placed on your report card, it can help a lot in the future. I had the ugliest haircut ever at this point.

I was 8 when i learned that sometimes, some people who you thought were going to be with you forever can easily walk out the front door and never come back. And they don't send gifts during birthdays or holidays either.

I was 9 when i learned that grown-ups aren't invincible, and they don't know everything, and they sometimes need a hug to remind them everything will be okay. I learned that I have to love and value the people who stay with me and love me.

I was 10 when I first had a crush who liked me back. I first had allowance as money and not food. I had my first 'lakwatcha' with friends until late nights, and sleepovers. I first lost my wallet, got scolded at, and wept.

I was 11 when i first felt the pressure of responsibilities building up, and learned the value of hard earned money. I found my wallet. I experienced my first theme park ride, and puked.

I was 12 when i thought i first fell in love, and lost. I gained the best friendship ever with my group of friends, i hoped it would last forever, but it didn't. I learned how to commute. I learned how to take care of myself.

I was 13 when i was introduced to a brand new world beyond the one i knew, and i didn't know i was ignorant till then. I learned to live life from a new point of view. I learned how to deal with peer pressure and false rumors.

I was 14 when i enjoyed the simple reasons for being happy. I learned what i was capable of, what i'm good at, where i need to improve. I knew myself better. I learned that you can't get everything you want. I learned what it was like and what it meant to be truly and genuinely happy. I learned that life is tough, but you need to be tougher.

I was 15 when i first experienced a heartbreak. I learned who my true friends are. I learned how to be proud for my own accomplishments.I looked back at my life and realized where i went wrong, and i had my regrets. I learned that you don't always get what you deserve. Life is not fair.

I was 16 when i gained a wider circle of acquaintances and friends. But i kept a smaller, tighter circle for the real friends i have. I learned how to give the best in what i do. I learned how to sacrifice for the things you love, and for the responsibilities you need to do. I learned the true meaning of happiness, and that happiness does not equal success.

16 years of learning and going.. What else do i need to realize about life?

Totally like whatever, you know?

By Taylor Mali
www.taylormali.com

In case you hadn't noticed,
it has somehow become uncool
to sound like you know what you're talking about?
Or believe strongly in what you're saying?
Invisible question marks and parenthetical (you know?)'s
have been attaching themselves to the ends of our sentences?
Even when those sentences aren't, like, questions? You know?

Declarative sentences - so-called
because they used to, like, DECLARE things to be true
as opposed to other things which were, like, not -
have been infected by a totally hip
and tragically cool interrogative tone? You know?
Like, don't think I'm uncool just because I've noticed this;
this is just like the word on the street, you know?
It's like what I've heard?
I have nothing personally invested in my own opinions, okay?
I'm just inviting you to join me in my uncertainty?

What has happened to our conviction?
Where are the limbs out on which we once walked?
Have they been, like, chopped down
with the rest of the rain forest?
Or do we have, like, nothing to say?
Has society become so, like, totally . . .
I mean absolutely . . . You know?
That we've just gotten to the point where it's just, like . . .
whatever!

And so actually our disarticulation . . . ness
is just a clever sort of . . . thing
to disguise the fact that we've become
the most aggressively inarticulate generation
to come along since . . .
you know, a long, long time ago!

I entreat you, I implore you, I exhort you,
I challenge you: To speak with conviction.
To say what you believe in a manner that bespeaks
the determination with which you believe it.
Because contrary to the wisdom of the bumper sticker,
it is not enough these days to simply QUESTION AUTHORITY.
You have to speak with it, too.

i like this :)
http://www.mymodernmet.com/profiles/blogs/a-poem-comes-to-life-through

Road Signs

I drive away upon green lights
Scarlet skies fill my clear sight
The journey lies in front of me
The road is barren, wide and free

I noticed Yield, ignored, sped up
Adrenaline rushed, I did not stop
Concrete blasts and debris fall
Spinning skies, horizon gone

Crimson fears, my body askew
Can't move, Can't see, what will I do?
No U-turns permitted, regrets flood my eyes
Left with a ticket, did not look back twice

I tread the wreckage back to home
The road i traveled all alone
I whimper and i sigh with angst
A Dead End meets my dreadful glance

So..

....and don't let me fall for you all over again because i know that you know that i still love you after everything, after ignoring me, after leaving in silence, after hurting me more each day, it's still you in my mind when i think about nothing, and you in my heart when i feel nothing else, and every time i stray from the normal world my thoughts and instinct eventually lead me back to you and i know it sucks because we've both moved one, and it was probably for the best, and after such a long time of suffering i have finally managed to stand back up, but the scars that went with the joy of loving you will never go away, along with the emotions that go with it, but know this- the moment you lead me back into your heart, or probably given a time machine to turn back time so that i may change whatever regrets i have committed, i will do the same as i did ten months ago, not regretting, not changing, not blaming, not even thinking, just knowing that you're still the only one, after all this time..

..is probably the longest sentence i've ever made :D

End

The shadows come and morning weeps
Scattered shards of glass unseen
Innocence and wonder wait
Though chains of guidance stall its gait

Fear, unknown, does not exist
A fairytale world his mind insists
Reality never foretold its tale
His image painted with emerald fields

Wind whips and slashes the tear-stricken face
And vision blurs, without slight wonder
Blindly running into masked danger
Trusting wholly, his instinct falters

The shadows near and morning gone
Scattered shards of glass unseen
Bleeding soles and tearful eyes
Surrender in one cold goodbye